I got sick a couple of weeks ago. I guess it was a mild case of the flu. I had some cold-like symptoms, and some nausea – and in general I just did not feel good. I was exhausted. I had no energy. I slept alot. I sat in bed and read, then decided to sleep some more. I cancelled my teleclass and my clients, and mostly rested for about a week and a half.
What was most interesting to me was that I could not send any healing energy. I could use Reiki and healing on myself, but when I tried to send healing to anyone else, it was like my hands were blocked. The door was closed and locked. I had never had this experience, even after surgery. My body was very clear that I was absolutely NOT to do any healing for others.
As I felt into the exhaustion, I was very aware of how much I tend to push through life. There is always more on my to-do list than I have time for. During the time I was sick, there was no pushing. I had to just be and rest – be with myself, rest, sleep, and not take care of anyone else.
Viruses mutate. I learned years ago that when we have a virus, it is often because we are in the process of some kind of transformation. We are mutating. As I rested and took care of myself, I felt excited about mutating / transforming – and finding more balance in my life. It became clear I need more relaxation and fun, and at the same time, I felt a new level of excitement and focus in my work and projects. Being sick was like hitting a reset button. It was deeply healing.
After about 10 days, my hands opened up again and I enjoyed doing healing sessions, both hands-on and at a distance.
Remember – you don’t have to get sick to stop pushing, to rest and relax, to transform! Listen to your body, mind, emotions, spirit – and be gentle and loving with yourself.