I have been the queen of stuffing it - being patient, being compassionate, being understanding - AND too much of the time, being angry or frustrated or sad or afraid - and not really being aware of it! Its how I was raised. Its how nice people act. Its an unconscious reaction - or it used to be. I remember talking to my mother and sister years ago about boundaries - and they asked in unison Whats a boundary?. Ha Ha!
The older I get, the more aware I am of how I am feeling in the moment, rather than unconsciously ignoring my feelings. And, although my automatic response is often still to stuff it, my conscious response is to speak up, or to make a ... READ MORE
The cycles and changes in life never cease to amaze me! We get to love, hold on, let go, feel pain, feel joy, feel peace - and breathe and trust! I am experiencing and seeing more changes and shifts right now than I have in a long time. I sense this is part of our Winter Solstice, and the energy around December 21, 2012.
What a month this has been! My dear friend Lisa died peacefully in her home, with her mother and sister by her side, on Tuesday, November 27. She was 58. I was honored to spend time with her the week before, and the Sunday and Monday before her passing. On Monday, the night before she died, there was so much light and love and ... READ MORE
I am still basking in the glow of having spent two lovely weeks in Hawaii with my sister Chris. We stayed in a wonderful ocean-front condo just south of Kona on the Big Island. We relaxed, read fun novels, swam and snorkeled almost every day, visited the volcano, a coffee farm, a chocolate farm, and swam with dolphins! Photos are here
There is something about Hawaii - the soft warm air, the sweet smells, the luscious fruit, the warm water. I adore it. Floating weightlessly in the water with my mask and snorkel is one of my favorite activities - which is much more about being than doing - being supported, allowing the water to carry me, watching and enjoying the ... READ MORE
When you lose touch with your inner stillness, you lose touch with yourself. When you lose touch with yourself, you lose yourself in the world. Eckhart Tolle
How many of us grew up in less than happy homes? As children we remembered, for awhile, who we really were, but we thought that (unconsciously, of course) if I just vacuum all this unhappiness up, and deal with it later, then everyone will be happy? And, I remember who I am, so I can handle it.
The problem was that we vacuumed up all the unhappiness, thinking the family would be happier - but they werent! They stayed unhappy! But now you are carrying around their unhappiness in your ... READ MORE
In our Western culture, we are raised to believe that the world is black or white, good or bad, up or down... This is the literal, linear world that we think we live in.
However, the longer I dance in the world of energy and healing and spirit, the more I realize everything is paradox - everything is up and down, black and white, good and bad. We are physical and spiritual. Yin and Yang.
Earlier this year, I wrote about a dear friend of mine, Lisa Saubolle, who was diagnosed with cancer that had spread to multiple places in her spine. What a journey we are on! She recently signed up with Hospice, needs 24-hour care, and desperately wanted ... READ MORE
I have been a student of Abraham-Hicks for years. And, for years I have wondered what to call "healing". Because, if you get sort of picky or literal about the Law of Attraction, the word "healing" implies that something is wrong. I was delighted during the Abraham Panama Canal Cruise (March 13 - 23, 2011) when Abraham was asked about healing. Here is a transcript of what was shared:
Whenever someone says to us I aspire to be a healer or I am a healer, we like to say we really really really like the word teacher/healer, teacher/healer, teacher/healer because everyone who is out of balance in terms of their physical body, and therefore what they would ... READ MORE
I have been in the midst of a love wave for the past week, and I am in awe. You can read my blog about my friend Lisa who had been having health problems. On January 25, she called 911, and has been in the hospital since then. A few days after being admitted, she was told she has cancer in her bones, which caused many fractures and other serious health problems. The first week was a process of tests and more tests, and just trying to get her pain and breathing under control. I was at the hospital alot doing energy healing and offering support.
On February 3, I started a website for Lisa on caringbridge.org. Another friend posted on a chat group that Lisa had been very ... READ MORE
I have a dear friend who I have known since 1997 when she took her first Reiki class with me. Since then, she has taken all of my classes, helped me to teach some of them, helped me when I coordinated workshops for Rosalyn Bruyere, traveled to Greece with me in 1999.. We have been friends a long time.
In the past few months, her health / mobility became increasingly challenged. She thought she had pulled a muscle in her back - and over time it became too painful for her to get in and out of her car, or go up and down her stairs, lay flat in her bed, or sit up. When I spoke with her about two weeks ago, she was unable to sit or stand, and ... READ MORE
New Years celebrations often include setting goals for the year, making New Years Resolutions, saying goodbye to the old and ringing in the new - oh, and drinking champagne. Fun, but most of us arent great at keeping our resolutions, and all too quickly get caught in our old hamster wheel of life. In fact, more often than not, our good intentions and resolutions end up making us feel worse about ourselves - because we have not lived up to our expectations. >/p>
I recently read a letter from one of my favorite authors in which she talked about choosing a word - just one word - before each new year, and using that word as a focus for ... READ MORE
I used to think I was part of the save the world team. I wanted to help heal as many people (and animals) as I could. I could feel the pain, the injustice, the suffering - and sometimes I would forget I could not take it all on by myself. That belief eventually evolved into realizing that I am part of a team - I am not the only one who wants to save the world. There are millions of us. It is not all on my shoulders. What a relief. But I was still stuck in the linear thinking that because there is suffering in the world, that I had to carry it and suffer also.
Then I started to realize that, paradoxically, the happier I am - the more I help to create happiness on ... READ MORE